Stressed Out

This might be a rambling mess. I've just got to write some thoughts and you, the reader, won't know what its about. This is a very, very public forum and some things must remain private because of security or sensitivity reasons.

Ok, on with it. Lately the level of stress has gone up. My new job is looking like a lot of high potential. We depend on doing business with other companies. We have been very successful the first two quarters of this year, like living in a bubble disconnected from the troubles of the world. But it cannot last forever. Our sales forecasts have dropped precipitously this quarter. Big companies are putting projects on hold or delaying or cancelling. My new job is sales and the stability of that job depends on being successful. Its harder in this environment. Already my boss is talking about feeling like he will have to pull back on how many people or selling. As I have no track record, that means I'll be the first to go. I won't lose my job, but I'll have to go back to consulting and get back on the road again. This is hard. This is tough to ponder.

And yet there is another stressor that is even worse. There's dissension in the family. Anne and I hate it and are very sad. We have prayed about it frequently. The conflict may not get resolved and leave some scars. I know you don't know what I am talking about. Just pray for us, ok?

No matter what happens or goes on, we know one thing for sure. We love every single member of our family intensely. Conflicts with loved ones is worse than any other kind of conflict.

Bob